The weakness of women

She was tired and sad, but she was never weak.

Action

My life is full of ideas and no action.  I don't know how to make this magic jump.  I need an animating force. I need electricity, juice, voltage. I need something more than lists I need more time in the world.

Sleep

I have a classic sleeping pattern. In other words, I am full of energy after dinner, stay up as late as possible, fitfully sleep until about 30 min before the alarm clock, then fall into a deep beautiful slumber. Then the alarm clock goes off and I hit snooze soo often that my dog leaves the room because he gets annoyed. I barely make it to work then zombie through the day promising to go to bed really early tonight. Tonight comes around and I feel too good to sleep. Typical.

Right now happens to be nap time. 3:30 in the afternoon and I could just lay my little head down on this desk and it would be lights out!

Tired

Today I was too tired to deal. My sister seemed to know that and managed me well. First she pretended like she couldn't see me upset and made me eat food. Then she went and helped me look for carpet. Now she is cooking dinner. It has taken her much longer than it would take me but I realize how much I have learned even in the last few months of cooking. All things get easier with practice. I am weary. I am going to take a nap.

Things to focus on after

Stay connected to outside. Feel wind rain cold dirt gravity the ground under my feet. Keep windows open, dress to stay out doors. Remember how the soft world smells. Be outside for a morning or evening transition in the fog.  Learn more names of plants and animals. Be barefoot more often.  Focus on retiring at the beach; spend lots of time in cold water and salt water and salt wind.  Go full days forgetting to look in the mirror.  Spend time with people who know who I should be. Use my body to churn my mind into action.

Angels Rest

Angels Rest

On Sunday I hiked up Angels Rest with my cousin. It got me thinking about how much better life would be if I didn't have to work and I could go outside to play every day. 

Blue nails.

I am addicted to Pinterest and need to take a few days away I think. It would be a good idea for me to take a complete electronic break and power down entirely for a week.
I want Matt to help me build a back yard mini house/pottingshed.

Best pasta ever.

2 tomatoes chopped
2 cups grape tomatoes cut in half
1/2 cup fresh basil chopped
1/4 cup green onions chopped
2 avocados diced
1/8 teaspoon black pepper
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 tablespoons olive oil

Mixup the above and serve cold over hot drained pasta. Call yourself a kitchen genius and move on.